So I haven't updated since april...wow.


anywho...

things in my life...

I've graduated college with a degree in Music Education.
I am not teaching
I work full time at Sam Ash
I Play in a Big Band called The Full Count Big Band on Monday nights
I teach Trombone Lessons every Tuesday and Thursday.
I teach Marching Band at Immaculata Highschool every Tuesday.
I work out like a mad man, and I am 230lbs and counting. ( I used to be 260lbs)
I play in a Wedding Reception Band, and its BALLIN!

So thats pretty much what I'm going.

My girlfriend just moved to Cambridge (in the UK, not MA)
So that sucks, but I am very proud of her because she is SUPER smart and is getting her masters there. So YEA GIRL! BUT...I shall be alone until August 2010. (lame)

thats pretty much my life right now.

how is everyone else?

I want to be famous...I'm workin on it.

-Eric D

why is it that I can never get upset?
why the hell do i always have to kowtow to everyone?
sure, its fine if you get upset, i'll just say I'm sorry even if its your fault...but GOD forbid you do something that I dont like right? Cause I mean, in stead of just apologizing and having it be done...you get mad at ME for getting upset because now you feel like an asshole...

well guess the fuck what?...you should feel like an asshole...you made me upset, and instead of saying sorry...you got mad at me...can't get much more asshole than that...

what the FUCK!?

im so god damn tired of this...every time...

nothing changes...

the same retarded problems move from one to the next...

you'd think this shit would stop once we grew up...NOPE! its like high school all the fuck over again...

SERENITY NOW!

and sometimes i wonder why i feel like ive turned into an asshole...well maybe i have...maybe im so damn tired of the same shit, that there's nothing left for me to do...because being a great guy never works...so maybe being an asshole will...

turns out...nothing works...

i poop rabbits!

does anyone read this?

So my new band Sharkweek of America is kickin ass and taking names!

We are in the midst of recording some sweet tracks for ya'll...pretty much our first cd! Its a very exciting time.

If you aren't a friend of ours yet...

check out our Myspace, and friend us!

http://www.myspace.com/sharkweekofamerica

and also check out our Label!

It's small time right now, but is in the works of lifting off VERY soon, and we are really happy to be a part of this family of musicians!

check out their myspace at http://www.myspace.com/rockpaperrecordsnj

Like I said, its a very exciting time for us, and things are happening, and happening fast...

so be on the look out!

Love,

Eric D

PS. I'm happy.

oh mad TV...i love how you're not funny.

No Country for Old Men....wow, what a great movie...just watched it..

you should watch it too.

for the whole few of you that actually cared...

this is pictures of my car when i flipped it









(it only looks like its on fire...)

yea...

pretty crazy.

-Eric

lame title..i know...

but monday night, my car skid on ice, slammed into a bank, took out a stop sign, and flipped my car on the right side.... and the scary part is, I wasn't even going that fast..Seriously, I was going like 35, but it was around a bend that normally isn't bad, but just at that point, my wheels didn't agree with the ice, and the road.

yea...it was...interesting to say the least.

Diana was in the car with me.

we are both ok, not even a scratch or bruise. so I do thank God for that. I truly do.

but my car is totaled...or so they say...hopefully, it isnt actually true.

but for now, I am driving my moms land yacht...

but yea... I really hope to never have to be in that situation again.

I am really glad neither of us got hurt, if anything had happened to Diana I would never be able to forgive myself.

it's crazy... it keeps replaying in my head.

and it makes me mad too cause I was SO close to regaining control.

I went out, regained control and straightened out, and then WHAM, the wheels skid again, and off we went.

and in my head, i only thought two things. 1. I'll regain control, and we'll be good, or 2. where goin down.

sadly, the latter is what happened.

and I didn't even care if I was hurt, all I cared about was Diana, and if she was ok.

wow..

but the night, and the past two days were fun, it was hard to have a great time, and not bring everyone down. but i did my best...and it was a great time, it really was.

and I am SO glad that I have a great friends, and a great family to support me.

I wish you could have seen it, I've never felt so safe. So if you were one of the ones there, and even if you werent...

thank you.

-Eric D

Diana got me Left 4 Dead! and Cloverfield again...cause some Jagon took it from me, but anyway...and she got me a ballin cardigan.

she is great.

Um..i just played left 4 dead for the first time...

i cant believe how amazing that game is...

it is so addictive...it was non-stop, and just crazy...

i love it.

im getting an XBOX 360 tomorrow...it is going to be amazing.

i just broke out the first folly cd...

shoot son...i wanna dance. i haven't been to a show in so long.

i feel like everyone around me is crashing, and there is nothing i can do to help. myself included. and i hate it. i care about my friends so damn much, and i want to be able to tell them that its going to be ok, but how can i assure someone i care for that it will be fine, when in actuality, i dont even know myself?

I want to move on, but im scared of breaking ties that ive worked so hard on building.
I want to play trombone, but i dont want practice
I want to teach, but i dont want to be THE band director
I want to travel, but i have to pay my college loans off
I want to get all my friends together like old times, and all of us just move somewhere new, that way it will be all of us again, but in a new location, but that is so unlikely.
I want to teach (again), but i feel like I am a hack
I want to be a professional Trombone player, but i feel like a hack


I am SO happy with Diana that I'm not happy. I'm too used to extreme conflict, I'm used to having to defend myself at all times of the day, I am used to having someone be mad at me for no reason, and then do as little as they could to explain why. I am so used to not being trusted (without good reason), that I don't even know if i trust myself.

I have basically all that I could want, but I feel like there is something missing.

i miss my friends, we live in the same house, but i never see them

I miss leo
i miss ed, charles, kathy, pete, mar, tom, kristin, kim, brian (just to name a few there are more, if i didn't write your name, trust me, i miss you too)

living in NB is a blessing and a curse, I have SO much freedom that I can't take it, yet when I am home, i feel caged.

I was able to get away, but in doing so, i distanced myself from people i care for.

I miss my brother, i never see him anymore, and when I do, he and his wife are fighting, and I'm almost positive its over me, why i dont know, i just feel un-welcomed in their home by her. i miss going home, and playing videogames with him, or watching a movie late at night when we were bored.

i miss last picked, the best time in my life thus far, i miss the camaraderie.
i miss playing shows every weekend with your best friends in the whole world
i miss them

i love progression, but i hate change.

-Eric

I rly h8 int3rnt spk.

y do ppl hav 2 shrtn every wrd? or spll thm incorrectly on ppus? it is sumthin that shuld hve gon out w/ rcky mrtin.

this is srsly takin me 4eva 2 typ cuz itz so dam illogical!


*editors note*
I am reading what I just typed, and it is gross...

-Eric

updated in like 2 or 3 weeks or so...

nothing is new.

i got a new computer, still no camera.

diana and i are well.

school starts in 2 days...its my last year...kinda crazy and unwanted, yet welcomed at the same time.

but after this year, it all changes again, last year i had a hard hit when basically all of my entering class graduated, and it was rough, cause they are all my very close friends, and ill basically never see them anymore...not cool

but such is life...and after this year, 79 nichol will be no more, rob and jess will move somewhere far away, francis will go to medical school, doug will be doug, jeff will be jeff, dan is going to be working in NYC, and the separation will begin...but thats a year away...but im still not ready for it, or looking forward to it.

and i will move back home, get a job, and work for the rest of my life...and eventually move out, get married, have kids...and be nothing more than a school teacher who wanted to do so much more with his life.

im writing this, and im not even depressed, just in a thinking mood.

diana and i will be fine...until she goes to grad school somewhere far for 2 years..not looking forward to figuring out how we're going to handle that.

yea...

i dont like change all that much.

but who would know? no one reads this anyway.

-Eric

so its totally cool coming home and seeing that your laptop, and camera, as well as rob's DS, and franci's DS...have been stolen.

that rules.

rules A LOT...

not happy.

so it a rule that if you get famous, you need to have a dousche-bag hair cut?

i think so...



i mean holy crap...look at them...they all look like assholes.





<---ugh..i hate that guy...and you know which one im talking about...






i think ive made my point...is it so much to ask? goodness gracious...dress and cut your hair like you REALLY want to please? and stop this madness...you look terrible.

good night.

Um...yes?

Woweee, it was amazing... Literally, it was perfect

Aaron Eckhart- amazing
Christian Bale- amazing
Michael Caine, and Morgan Freeman-..come on, really? do you even have to ask how they acted?
Maggie Gyllenhaal- amazing, and beautiful

and of course...

Heath Ledger- Stellar...Simply, stellar. The movie itself was fantastic...but without him...it would have seriously lost something great. And the acting and movie world have truly lost someone great. He had SERIOUS talent, and after this role...he would have been one of the most sought after actors in a long time...It is truly a shame that we lost him so soon. And after seeing this movie, you really wish his death wasn't true.

So R.I.P Heath Ledger, you are missed greatly.


thats my $.02.

nighty night.

-Eric D

I can't wait to go see it again.

I am currently typing to you VIA bathroom at 79 Nichol. Use your imagination.

Anywho.

I have some very very exciting news. About a week and a half ago, I placed an application, and resume at Sam Ash Music in Edison, NJ. I wrote on my application, that I could sell Guitars, Drums, Brass, Woodwinds, and keys...basically the entire store. Well, I get a call back the day before I go on vacation, asking me if I could come in an interview for a position in Customer Service. I told them that I was on my way down the beach, and I'd be there all week. and they say, "oh, thats totally fine...call us when you get back, and we'll set up an interview then." (This was already a good sign...seeing as how they were willing to wait for me to get back) So I get back call them, set up the interview. Interview 1 goes very well, and they ask me to come back the next day for the second interview with the other manager. Interview #2 goes very well. Both managers were very impressed with my resume, but were curious if I could work in customer service, and of course I told them I could (and I really do believe that I could, I can manipula....work well with people) and they were also excited to see that I can play a lot of instruments because that means that if they needed me somewhere else they could use me. Mind you, this interview is for the Customer Service position. Anywho, at the second interview, they start asking me what my availability is (good sign #2), I also filled out their background check, and other paperwork (good sign #3). So the second interview is done. That was wednesday. Today I get a call, asking me if I would be willing to be a Sales Representative in the drums department. He says to me, " I know we interviewed you for Customer Service, but we feel that you could be placed anywhere, and we need another drums rep. Would you like to do it?" And I immediately said no! Haha...PSH! I was like, "hell yea son." (Ok..maybe I didn't say that..but I wanted to).

So anyway, you are currently looking at the newest Sam Ash employee in the drums department. :) I AM TOO SOUPED!

I have basically wanted to work as Sam Ash all my life.

And even on a more plus side...I have been running everyday, and I have changed my diet, and I am actually for the first time in my life noticing results...

AND...I just bought my ticket to Dark Knight for Thursday, July 17, 2008, 12:10am.

HELL YEA!

I like this new feeling of maybe the world isn't out to get me.

I am happy. read that? I am happy.

feels good.

-Eric

SO...

I just had my 22nd birthday...and it ruled.

My Girlfriend surprised me with Midieval Times on wednesday, and that RULED! I also got knighted...it was bitchin.

anyway, things with her and i are great... very very happy.

but somethings are still plaguing me.

- Im trying to lose weight, but I still feel like my efforts are in vain, but I must trudge on
- I don't want TP to stop being a band, we are SO effin good, I don't know whats wrong with me. Being a front man is tough work, but I want it so bad, but the drive goes away as fast as it arrives, and I have no idea why. All I want is to be in a band again playing shows all the time, and just having fun, but for some reason, I just can't get off my butt and do it.
- I miss my college friends that graduated

Thats basically it. Everything else is great.

Thank you all for the birthday love, it really meant a lot. This birthday was the best birthday I have ever had. So thank you so much for that :)

how is everyone else? If we haven't spoken in a while...I am sorry, so please...get in touch with me, and lets keep it up. Yell at me, and remind me to get in touch with you. Word.

well, I am off to bed now.

Ta.

-Eric

so....


im totally in love with these women...in order

1. Olivia Munn- she is and will always be everything i've ever wanted...personality, brains, looks...meowza.

<---any geeks dream...

2. Jessica Alba <--in a very close second


3. Kari Byron (Mythbusters)


4. Hayden Panettiere (Heroes)


my goodness...im bored.

-Eric